“The worst feeling in the world has got to be the one of feeling used.”
“Really? I’d say it’s far worse to feel like you have used someone. It’s just that most people in that position somehow escape feeling their own disgust.”
“Disgust. That’s it. I feel used and it’s disgusting.”
“What would you rather feel like?”
“I don’t know. I just don’t want to be a dog that he can just toss a bone to whenever he feels like it, you know?”
“Who are we kidding here. You and I both know that you’re just going to be his loyal little b——.”
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“Don’t ever grow up to be well-adjusted. Anything but that.”
“Why? What ever could be wrong with being comfortable and settled down?”
“You’ll end up married to a man who only knows some shadow of you and the title of your favourite book. It won’t be enough.”
“You know, passionate people sometimes also do exactly what society expects without losing anything.”
“Sure, but not as passionate as you. Accepted adulthood will be like chewed up gum that loses its sweetness too soon. You’re better suited to erratic madness.”
“It’s funny that everyone would like to believe that they’re the one person who wasn’t cut out to fit the ‘well-adjusted’ mould, but we all saw our edges down to the right kind of smoothness in the end anyway, right?”
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“You die when you stop writing.”
“I would rather take death than write words with gaping expanses in between them.”
“Pauses are not death.”
“Perhaps not the eternal kind.”
“What other kind of death is there?”
“The kind which revives you over and over only for you to die again.”
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“Do you ever write from reality?”
“Always.”
“So you’re saying that every sentence is true?”
“I’m saying that every experience is mine.”
“What if they don’t believe you?”
“They don’t.”
“Don’t you want them to know it’s more than fiction?”
“Nobody ever asks where the words comes from, so it hardly matters.”
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“So what’s the most romantic thing anyone has ever said to you?”
“Romantic? I wouldn’t remember something like that.”
“Oh right, sorry, your translation of the word romantic doesn’t equate with mine.”
“Romance isn’t love. People don’t read ‘romance’ novels to learn about love.”
“Then what is the most love-filled thing that anyone has ever said to you?”
“If I remember correctly, it was, ‘you would be overestimating me if you believed that I had the capacity to love anyone but you’.”
“And when did he tell you that?”
“When I found his letters to his last lover.”
“Sounds like that was just romance after all as well.”
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“You should really unpack.”
“I will if you kiss me.”
“We aren’t lovers —”
“But you do love me.”
“Of course I love you. But I don’t love you.”
“Didn’t you say so yourself? Love is love is love.”
